Holmes-Rahe stress event testymajig

Ok, so it's 15 days to the wedding, and I'm feeling pretty stressed out right now, so I just took the Holmes-Rahe stress event test to see how bad it is. Scores below 150 indicate low levels of stress, 150-300 moderate, and 300+ severe. My score was 507 - with a 90% chance of developing a serious illness in the next 2 years. W00t. I wonder if there's some evidence of God in the fact that I've not had a mental breakdown yet!

I have however taken more time of sick this year than I ever have in my life - and felt massively guilty about it too. I'm sure the test is fallible, but finding out that I have a stress score WAY above what is considered serious makes me feel a bit less bad about feeling run-down, stressed out and generally not that productive at work. Ticking so many boxes on the test has made me realise the burden I'm carrying around day-to-day, like the junk lady in Labyrinth. The thing is, like her it's behind me so I don't generally see it.


It's also made me feel a bit angry at the lack of sympathy I've received from my supervisors over my feelings of being stressed and overwhelmed. I feel I didn't get much guidance at the start of my course (just a lot of conflicting information from my 5 supervisors), but I have still managed to be happy and productive much of the time. Perhaps they don't realise much of what's going on in my life - or perhaps those sorts of things don't affect them so much so they don't empathise - or perhaps they really do feel that I shouldn't be letting these things affect my work.

Humpf.